2 Fat Friends Blog

feeling a little down.

2fatfriends — Sat, 19 Sep 2009 12:10:12 +0000

Okay, so i have been feeling a little down this past couple of days. I don’t really know what brought all of this on but i’ve just been thinking about life latey, and i just feel incomplete. I feel like im just wasting life away and i dont know what to do about it. I feel like i’m stuck at a dead end job that im not going anywhere in, my love life is non-exsistent, and i feel a little empty inside rite now. I don’t really know how to put it in words, i’ve never really been good at expressing my feelings. I just dont know what to do anymore. I just watched the movie “i can do bad all by myself” and i loved it. But it just made me realize something. It made me realize that im not really living my life. That im just going through the motons to survive, and im tired of doing it. What i need in my life is change. And the only person that can change this is me , myself, and i. I think i just need to motivate myself more, ive never really been the perosn that you could count on to get somthing done intime. Ive always just kinda slacked off i guess you could say. But i dont want to be that person anymore. I want to be the perosn that always looks on the brighter side of things instead of always dwelling in the bad things. I need to do something with my life that is better than im doing rite now. I know i cant just change over night, and it will take some time. But somehow i will change this. Slowly by slowly it will happen. And i will see the light. And oneday i will be fully and completely happy.

Going out.

2fatfriends — Tue, 14 Jul 2009 12:19:48 +0000

Okay. So i absolutely love going out with the girls, but i hate that I’m usually always that fattest one their! I mean people always say “oh your pretty for a big girl”. Why cant i just get ”your pretty”. Shoot. When we go out i never get all the attention that they are getting. I’m not going out to find somebody but when I’m with 4 other skinny girls and they are getting all the attention it kinda irritates me. And most of the time the girls i go out with already have boyfriends so they don’t even wanna talk to the guys, but I’m single. Hello! And I’m the one that hardly ever gets the attention from guys. I just get a little self conscious when this happens it just makes me not want to go out anymore. ugh. idk. i really need to start working out again.

Being a fat wife

2fatfriends — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 13:07:45 +0000

My husband is wonderful. I am very lucky to have found him because even though I am 30 pounds fatter than him, he still loves me more than I could have ever imagined someone could love me. I am a fat wife. But see there are a lot of wives out there that are fat right now, but I bet most of them are older than me. I am 21 years old. I bet that most of the fat wives out there in the world got married when they were skinny and had years with their husband looking skinny and fit and sexy and young and then after years and years they have let themselves go and have become fat. I am not one of them. I am a 21 year old wife at a hugantic 260 pounds. I feel bad because I am cheating myself from living my youth how it supposed to be. I feel sad because my youth is slipping away and I am spending it being huge and self concious and not living life to its full potential. I dont know how it feels to look good in a bikini. I dont know how it feels to go to the mall and easily finds clothes that fit and that I look good in. I feel horrible for all of these reasons. But the thing I feel most badly for is that I am not that young hot wife that my husband deserves. We are in our 20′s and I look like I am supposed to be 40. Its not fair.

I finished reading the Twilight Saga!!

2fatfriends — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 23:39:05 +0000

I finished it a couple days ago. Although Eclipse made me upset and I was Team Jacob and hoped that Bella would end up with Jacob, I guess everything worked itself out in a weird way. What an ending huh? Jacob is imprinted on Bellas daughter? That is kinda weird only because we all know that Jacob already kissed Bella and wanted to have sex with her. Oh well. In the end everyone is extremely happy so I guess the books were good. What do you guys think?

R.I.P. Michael Jackson

2fatfriends — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 18:46:17 +0000

I remember going to Michael Jacksons concert in 1997. Me and my sister was so excited that we made a song from the poster of the concert so we could always remember this special event in our lives. The song went: King of Pop Micheal Jackson History World Tour ’96 and in 1997 January 3, 7:30 PM Aloha Stadium. We would sing it over and over, so much so that more than 12 years later I still remember that song. At his concert I was mesmorized. It was just spectacular! I was a 9 year old girl singing to all of his songs with him as he glides all over the stage. He was a phenomenal entertainer. Rest in Peace.

Im reading the last book to the Twilight Series: Breaking Dawn

2fatfriends — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 00:00:56 +0000

I liked Twilight, loved New Moon, got pissed with Eclipse, and is reading Breaking Dawn. I am on Team Jacob hahaha. I know it works out in the end and I am past the part in the book where Renesmee is already born and Jacob is I guess “imprinted” with her so him and Bella I guess are officially like no possibility to be together so I guess thats good. But Eclipse pissed me off so much that I wasnt even sure I wanted to read the last book. I really was wishing she would just be with Jacob. Well Im half way done with the last book and Im gonna go read it right now, but I really wanna know what you guys thought if you read the series! Let me know!

Cant wait for the new episode of Gotti’s Way!

2fatfriends — Mon, 22 Jun 2009 21:40:45 +0000

Yes I am officially obsessed. I actually wait all damn week for the new episode to come on. How weird huh? Its fucked up though cuz I try to record it to my DVR cuz I usually am not home to see the new episode but every fricken week I try to view the recording and someone either stopped it midway, erased the timer, or erased the recorded episode before I can see it!! So irraz!! But I end up watching it by trying to record a rerun. So I watched last weeks episode when Deb went boxing and Irv had the kids in the studio. What Irv said at the end was so selfish. Something like, “I gotta make it right with Deb so I can have my regular routine back” Hello!! The whole reason she made things that way was so she could be happy and try and get a life for herself. But oh, fuck her happiness, nothing should inconvenience Mr. Irv Gotti! What an Ass. He owes her some time so she can get a life (meaning find someone better) especially cuz he’s a slutty husband! She really needs to get some. Seven years?!?! Damn I dont think I would survive, especially knowing that my husband is getting his when Im stuck at home doing absolutely nothing sexual with no one. That must suck!

I totally agree with Deb Gotti Lorenzo

2fatfriends — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 13:54:04 +0000

So I watched last weeks show when Deb went to the Gayle King show by herself and then Irv was saying how she should be grateful for what she got. In a way that is kinda true only to the extent that her children are getting taken cared of. But in the mean time, she is totally getting neglected as a wife. I as a wife understands what she is saying that she is totally unhappy with her life and it shouldnt be like this. It shouldnt. If you took your marriage seriously you would know the role of a husband is not to just pay the bills to take care of his family financially and not have a loving relationship with his wife. A major part of the husbands role is to make his wife feel loved and cherished and obviously Irv is not doing that. All the people who calls her ungrateful and that she should be happy with how her life is is just stupid. If you noticed, all the people who says she should be happy with how her life is is either single and lonely or dont appreciate the meaning of ’marriage’.

BEACH!

2fatfriends — Wed, 10 Jun 2009 10:00:33 +0000

Okay so i absolutely LOVE the beach. But I’m always so self conscious because I’m fat, and i see all of those skinny girls out their in there two piece bikini’s and I’m over here wearing shorts and a tank top. Ugh it just gets so irritating sometimes and i get really sad after. Sometimes I’m just not even in the mood to stay at the beach anymore because i get so self conscious with myself i don’twant everybody to be looking at me! But nothing can ever stop me from going to the beach. Sometimes i just like to go their by myself and think about things. It’s always so peaceful to me i don’t know how to explain it. Just because I’m fat shouldn’t stop me from doing something i really enjoy.

This fat girl is obsessed with Gottis Way

2fatfriends — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 12:49:21 +0000

Im frickin obsessed with that show. I think its mostly because I am fascinated on how Deb Gotti is dealing with being married to Irv. I read the book Confessions of a Video Vixen not too long ago and then the second season of Gottis Way started and I was hooked. I think it had a lot to do with knowing how Irv Gotti is portrayed in the book and seeing him with his family and wife he totally disregards as he is fucking all these other girls makes me think like how can Deb still be married to him when he doesnt love her at all. I am a very strong women and I just stare in awe as Deb deals with all that bull shit. I cant wait to see next weeks show when they go on the Gail King radio show. I know they went on a long time ago and could probably find out exactly what was said on the radio show but I want to see Debs reactions to her husband being a total ass.